YAHMOS!
Well, after being taken aback by all the happenings ( destructive) from spectrum scam( not that destructive) to the latest earthquakes & tsunami in Japan to the expected Super moon phenomenon on march 19th to the solar flare that came out of a burst in the sun's surface facing the earth to the middle east conflicts to the falling economies and rising prices to the appalling oil leaks and to cherry top all that the mayan calender prediction of 21st dec 2012 being the final day, its quite natural to have a thought on the topic " What if the world is coming to an end this weekend?". I mean , its imperative that I think about this, becoz i don't want to be going with an incomplete list of " to do" stuff!
The topic came up during a dinner with a friend as a byproduct of the discussion on the Japan incident. I was the first to ask him as to what would be his reactions and his set of actions later on, as he came to know that the world is ending the next weekend! He said, he had earlier asked himself and another of our common friend the same and found to be perplexed at the resulting thought process that accompanied the discussions.
So now, I thought about the topic, not from my brains, not from my rational self, but from my heart, from my innerself, from my mere existence. The thought was not forced, but rather self motivated. I wanted to know what I valued in the end, Who I valued in the end and what is that I perceive of myself.
So firstly, as soon as I confirm the information that "dude, its full stop!", those of you who know me in person can imagine me as to how I would have a face similar to a situation when I knew " Im Screwd!!!". Well, there will be a bit of tension, anxiety, anger, frustration,dissapointment and joy! Now I say joy, becoz there wont be any more of the most dreaded social pressures and commitments to abide by. No more going to college for attendance, no more church for making Dad smile, No more wearing respectable clothes to look presentable, No more pretending to like and listen to people whom you consider category Z: NUTS! No more mess timings to live by, No more bargains on respects. Nothing more that with forced discipline without motivated thought would exist! perfect! I always have dreamed of that!
Action 1 would be to sit down and make my bucket list!( The name coz its the list you make before kicking the bucket!". And then, I'l make the first call( ok, so gotta save some money and recharge!!) to my parents. Tell them that the situation is like so and so and that everything is gonna be alright and that I'l get back to them by the weekend, becoz, the last people I ever trust and love to the inner self will be them and that laughing with my mom and bro by the side as we watch the nuke missile pass overhead would be the funniest and the most cherished( If at all there is an after life where one can cherish!) memory of mine! so I wanna end my life with people I started it with!
Action two will be to go online. Cmon, Im not a internet freak who lives by Cyber monday rules! I will go online to check the next flight to north India. Now that would be to face death before death faces me. Hm , confusing right? ok, heres the story. One of my friends told me that adventure sports which literally gets your stomach rolling and your bladder leaking, are the ones that teach you how its to be when you kinda let go to face death! Exactly, I wanna go try Bungee jumping, Sky diving, Mountaineering, snorkeling, para gliding and whatever that make me an adrenalin guy! I want to sign that document( doc of self approval if something goes wrong!), get my attachments, get briefed about th rules and all the way, feel that anxiety and uncontrollable smile on my face as to what will happen next! then, make that jump, feel that free fall, yell out!!!!
Action 3 will be to try get as much money I can from bank and make that Virgin Atlantic trip to experience 20 min of ZERO gravity! WOW.. I can simply imagine the fun! floating freely with no worries...Also as that part, I would like to take the navigators role in a supersonic jet fighter, sit back and feel multitudes of G force pressing my blood vessels down, feel a little acrophobia and a bit of tachophobia.
Action 4 would be to come back. That coming back would be to all the people I have had grace to spend time and life with. Firstly my friends. That would be a long list, but I am ready to work hard for one last time. I would meet everyone in person( or atleast want to!), share with them the little memories of our time, the funny things we did, the fights we had, call up others who are away and tell them that though a set of electrons cant convey my gratefulness to them for being a part of my life, i would have no other option to show my love! sent a couple of card to my immediate family members, my cousins, nephews, relations etc. ( i don't know what card to buy: you can buy a new year card can u? :D). I would call up all the women, who have passed my life as little crushes, as infatuations, as inspirations (to work hard to get a better one!! :D), those who have given me sleepless nights, cheerful smiles, lot of pains, those who have made me think, made me a better man!
Action 5 would be again a little more deeply inclined and magical! I would call her up. Would ask her how she is, what her plans are, and ask her out (that would be our first date!!!finally!!). we have always discussed how nice it would be to have a candle light dinner. Maybe not in a restaurant, but in a more private place where we could cook together( she knows cooking too!) and make the table, pour some Italian red wine and champagne. I always prefer some soft music in the background. We could eat in silence looking into each others eyes, with little whispers of conversation. I would also love to dance with her( though the strong point is that I never have danced! or have tried that risk! but it doesn't matter really!). Also, would love to see her playing her instrument! I did save some more of romance becoz that's personal!:D
Action 6 would be to get back home. To the beautiful city of varkala. Tht's where my parent are put up now! Its a small town close to Trivandrum main city, lying along the coast of Arabian sea. And it is the only beach to boast of a Cliff along the shoreline.( will that save you from a tsunami??). I would wanna then spent time with them, play cricket with bro, watch some movies, spent time cooking with mom, talking to dad( wudnt mind getting a little drink to talk through!). Would also love to take my car out, hang out at the beach with them, make those sand castles I always dreamed of making! I would take long showers in tub rooms( I have never done it before but would love to!), eat mom's julab jamuns and pasteries. Then, at home I would ask them for some private time, recluse myself and take out my dairy. Will love to leaf through the pages as old as my eight std, revive all those incidents I am proud of and all those I am not. I would call up everyone with whom I have a sorry pending, and tell it from heart( They dnt give extra points in heaven to max number of enemies!). I would repent for all those mistakes that changed my life. I would thank for all those wonderful experiences that made me what I am. All those memories that have made my eyes moist! I would then write my last dairy entry( though I really don't know what it would be on!). Then, I'l pick up a good book, put on my stereo, and listen to my everlasting playlists.
Definitely, then would come my most important sleep! But then, I will sleep like I haven't slept in 21 years!with a sense of joy and completeness. I might not dream, there would be no more nightmares. I will just relax.
Action 7: That would be to wait. Wait for that final moment. But then, waiting would be boring. I would rather start my day as usual with mom's tea, a jog, some exercise, waking up bro, checking my mails, reading newspaper, dropping mom at office( if at all theres one!!!) etc!!!.
I am happy. simply because, a little thought, helped me introspect and understand me better, that's why I wanted to share that feeling with my friends. Each of us have our own world, guess its times like these that we take a back seat and think as to what our priorities really are! I would be happy if you could take the question home and think about it for a moment. You might discover whats most essential that you are missing in our everyday, otherwise mad race to conquer the world!
Finally, through this note, I would also like to extend my prayer to all the affected in the world due to all the reasons I mentioned aforementioned. I would also extend my sense respect and gratitude for being born a human being and to being let to live a life most worthy!
Well, after being taken aback by all the happenings ( destructive) from spectrum scam( not that destructive) to the latest earthquakes & tsunami in Japan to the expected Super moon phenomenon on march 19th to the solar flare that came out of a burst in the sun's surface facing the earth to the middle east conflicts to the falling economies and rising prices to the appalling oil leaks and to cherry top all that the mayan calender prediction of 21st dec 2012 being the final day, its quite natural to have a thought on the topic " What if the world is coming to an end this weekend?". I mean , its imperative that I think about this, becoz i don't want to be going with an incomplete list of " to do" stuff!
The topic came up during a dinner with a friend as a byproduct of the discussion on the Japan incident. I was the first to ask him as to what would be his reactions and his set of actions later on, as he came to know that the world is ending the next weekend! He said, he had earlier asked himself and another of our common friend the same and found to be perplexed at the resulting thought process that accompanied the discussions.
So now, I thought about the topic, not from my brains, not from my rational self, but from my heart, from my innerself, from my mere existence. The thought was not forced, but rather self motivated. I wanted to know what I valued in the end, Who I valued in the end and what is that I perceive of myself.
So firstly, as soon as I confirm the information that "dude, its full stop!", those of you who know me in person can imagine me as to how I would have a face similar to a situation when I knew " Im Screwd!!!". Well, there will be a bit of tension, anxiety, anger, frustration,dissapointment and joy! Now I say joy, becoz there wont be any more of the most dreaded social pressures and commitments to abide by. No more going to college for attendance, no more church for making Dad smile, No more wearing respectable clothes to look presentable, No more pretending to like and listen to people whom you consider category Z: NUTS! No more mess timings to live by, No more bargains on respects. Nothing more that with forced discipline without motivated thought would exist! perfect! I always have dreamed of that!
Action 1 would be to sit down and make my bucket list!( The name coz its the list you make before kicking the bucket!". And then, I'l make the first call( ok, so gotta save some money and recharge!!) to my parents. Tell them that the situation is like so and so and that everything is gonna be alright and that I'l get back to them by the weekend, becoz, the last people I ever trust and love to the inner self will be them and that laughing with my mom and bro by the side as we watch the nuke missile pass overhead would be the funniest and the most cherished( If at all there is an after life where one can cherish!) memory of mine! so I wanna end my life with people I started it with!
Action two will be to go online. Cmon, Im not a internet freak who lives by Cyber monday rules! I will go online to check the next flight to north India. Now that would be to face death before death faces me. Hm , confusing right? ok, heres the story. One of my friends told me that adventure sports which literally gets your stomach rolling and your bladder leaking, are the ones that teach you how its to be when you kinda let go to face death! Exactly, I wanna go try Bungee jumping, Sky diving, Mountaineering, snorkeling, para gliding and whatever that make me an adrenalin guy! I want to sign that document( doc of self approval if something goes wrong!), get my attachments, get briefed about th rules and all the way, feel that anxiety and uncontrollable smile on my face as to what will happen next! then, make that jump, feel that free fall, yell out!!!!
Action 3 will be to try get as much money I can from bank and make that Virgin Atlantic trip to experience 20 min of ZERO gravity! WOW.. I can simply imagine the fun! floating freely with no worries...Also as that part, I would like to take the navigators role in a supersonic jet fighter, sit back and feel multitudes of G force pressing my blood vessels down, feel a little acrophobia and a bit of tachophobia.
Action 4 would be to come back. That coming back would be to all the people I have had grace to spend time and life with. Firstly my friends. That would be a long list, but I am ready to work hard for one last time. I would meet everyone in person( or atleast want to!), share with them the little memories of our time, the funny things we did, the fights we had, call up others who are away and tell them that though a set of electrons cant convey my gratefulness to them for being a part of my life, i would have no other option to show my love! sent a couple of card to my immediate family members, my cousins, nephews, relations etc. ( i don't know what card to buy: you can buy a new year card can u? :D). I would call up all the women, who have passed my life as little crushes, as infatuations, as inspirations (to work hard to get a better one!! :D), those who have given me sleepless nights, cheerful smiles, lot of pains, those who have made me think, made me a better man!
Action 5 would be again a little more deeply inclined and magical! I would call her up. Would ask her how she is, what her plans are, and ask her out (that would be our first date!!!finally!!). we have always discussed how nice it would be to have a candle light dinner. Maybe not in a restaurant, but in a more private place where we could cook together( she knows cooking too!) and make the table, pour some Italian red wine and champagne. I always prefer some soft music in the background. We could eat in silence looking into each others eyes, with little whispers of conversation. I would also love to dance with her( though the strong point is that I never have danced! or have tried that risk! but it doesn't matter really!). Also, would love to see her playing her instrument! I did save some more of romance becoz that's personal!:D
Action 6 would be to get back home. To the beautiful city of varkala. Tht's where my parent are put up now! Its a small town close to Trivandrum main city, lying along the coast of Arabian sea. And it is the only beach to boast of a Cliff along the shoreline.( will that save you from a tsunami??). I would wanna then spent time with them, play cricket with bro, watch some movies, spent time cooking with mom, talking to dad( wudnt mind getting a little drink to talk through!). Would also love to take my car out, hang out at the beach with them, make those sand castles I always dreamed of making! I would take long showers in tub rooms( I have never done it before but would love to!), eat mom's julab jamuns and pasteries. Then, at home I would ask them for some private time, recluse myself and take out my dairy. Will love to leaf through the pages as old as my eight std, revive all those incidents I am proud of and all those I am not. I would call up everyone with whom I have a sorry pending, and tell it from heart( They dnt give extra points in heaven to max number of enemies!). I would repent for all those mistakes that changed my life. I would thank for all those wonderful experiences that made me what I am. All those memories that have made my eyes moist! I would then write my last dairy entry( though I really don't know what it would be on!). Then, I'l pick up a good book, put on my stereo, and listen to my everlasting playlists.
Definitely, then would come my most important sleep! But then, I will sleep like I haven't slept in 21 years!with a sense of joy and completeness. I might not dream, there would be no more nightmares. I will just relax.
Action 7: That would be to wait. Wait for that final moment. But then, waiting would be boring. I would rather start my day as usual with mom's tea, a jog, some exercise, waking up bro, checking my mails, reading newspaper, dropping mom at office( if at all theres one!!!) etc!!!.
I am happy. simply because, a little thought, helped me introspect and understand me better, that's why I wanted to share that feeling with my friends. Each of us have our own world, guess its times like these that we take a back seat and think as to what our priorities really are! I would be happy if you could take the question home and think about it for a moment. You might discover whats most essential that you are missing in our everyday, otherwise mad race to conquer the world!
Finally, through this note, I would also like to extend my prayer to all the affected in the world due to all the reasons I mentioned aforementioned. I would also extend my sense respect and gratitude for being born a human being and to being let to live a life most worthy!
